My Experiences with the ‘Smart Drug’ Modafinil

It is the improbable tonic of CEOs (“Smart Medicines Are Coming to the Office”) and pupils (“Smart Drug Taken By One in Four Students“).

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After the panic attack, I immediately gave up coffee.

Looking back…
2. Sudden lack of mobility (from the broken feet ) had seriously restricted my ability to go around Bangkok. That is quite integral to my reassurance.
All of those signs I was feeling over lunch:
I’d be studying the Kindle and fear would sweep over me in the turn of an entirely benign sentence.
It’s ’s not likely to leave my system for hours however.
I endured a couple of smaller ‘aftershocks’ and a greatly heightened state of anxiety and societal unease.

(Yes, I’m ’m dribble-typing at a bakery)

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I am aware of, flying and meditation sounds dumb as a concept for sudden onset fear, right?
Particularly around meal times.
3. I’d recently gotten engaged — that obviously, I had been happy about — but felt overwhelmed with the possibility of building a wedding in a foreign country. Family and friends gathering 6000 kilometers off? Organizing the proverbial piss up in a brewery is sufficient to worry me out, so that was no doubt playing on my mind.

MO-DA-FIN-NILLLLL

My theory being… that you ’re a jittering mess, any additional stimulation is a terrible idea.

“Jesus, what a bad choice to stop carrying it…”

What’s Modafinil?

On the 3-4 times per week that I’d utilize modafinil, I’d bulldoze my way through tasks where previously I’d been stuttering, becoming restless, and finally turning back to my own News Feed.
“I’d fuckin’ have a number of this, matey. Straight down the hatch. No questions asked. ”

Hollywood Science.

Initial Impressions

After making it home via a very shaky taxi ride in which I wanted to leap out of the car and run in the sight of each red light, I went into bed and slept .
Were the modafinil productivity gains worthwhile?
There is not any such drug that’s capable of ‘fully using the un-used parts of the mind ’.

Possessing a fantastic team certainly helps with this.

Hell hath no fury like the thunderbolt approaching a barista’s way if she needs to fuck up one of these, or underfill my cup.

My theory was that pulling myself away from work, from the tunnel, was causing an avalanche of thoughts, feelings and emotions to quickly rush back and fill out the vacuum chamber I’d made.
I’d only stampede them over.
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I’ve noticed remarks all over the board, from people who swear by it, to people who didn’t notice that a single switch on a high dose.
However, anybody who saw that movie came away with the identical idea.
1. Maybe not overdone my adrenaline system using modafinil.
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The Tolerance Builds?

I am able to ’t say for sure what caused such a monumental fuck-up of a beginning to 2017.
MO-DA-FI-NILLLLLLLLL
(And I’m fairly sure that first cup was exactly what paradise tastes like.)
Modafinil is a little pill that is becoming difficult to ignore.
5. I’d lately surfaced in float tank and meditation sessions.

There’s no uncertainty I get less done about the times where I begin badly, or may ’t focus, or just can’t get started.

Even though the small signs were there all along.
Modafinil is a wakefulness-promoting representative used to treat narcolepsy.
My routine would look like this:
The typical affiliate may look at that and believe:

If you’re going to use it, then get in sync with your mind and body.

I think a lot of that was down to some self-reenforcing loop:

That really is, you pitiful labouring dinosaur.
Honestly… yes.

I felt as though I’d run in to a brick wall, emotionally.

  • I’m 10 less powerful in my good days
  • I’m 50% less successful in my bad times
  • I’m ’m less anxious in general
  • that I ’m better in creative tasks

Lots of you personally swear by it.

Formerly, if someone had told me that they were feeling stressed, my gut reaction is to insist, “Eh, then you ’ll be alright, there’s nothing to be concerned about”, also treat it like a lapse of psychological strength.
I was shaken badly.
Anyone having an inbox which won’t detract, an essay that won’t write itself, several pages of code must be freed from your spinning wheels of mental inertia.
Although I can devote less time there.
There seemed very little drawback.
But that’s relative to an very large bar.

Anxiety in Disguise

You might be wondering why …

  • Your sleep is shit-hammered
  • The effects of the moda have diminished

Though a panic attack in public will need to go down as one of my shittier experiences of 2017, I see it as a positive entity.
I legitimately walked out of Dean & Deluca a couple of weeks ago as soon as they Full-Fat-Milked me by mistake.

Arguably the nearest thing we have to an effective brain drug in 2017.
Riddled with this brand new catch-all feeling of anxiety, particularly around meal times.
These months were tough.

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If a deflecting email landed in my inbox, I still wouldn’t see it.
My mind goes back five years to some particularly challenging period in my company.
This is the crowd that modafinil appeals to.

Acknowledging anxiety.

Your Ideas (And More of Mine…)

Nonetheless, it comprises an element of the reality.
Float tanks have been supposed for a release from anxiety and stress, since the brain in zero-gravity has nothing to do but listen to its inner thoughts and ‘heal’.

I actually took two whole weeks off work to attempt to get my own shit together. And to handle the harsh mood swings of stopping caffeine.

Well, we all know affiliates are particularly adept at riding the upcoming hot trend. All the way to the lender.
I am able to ’t remember when I eventually made a decision to experiment with modafinil, however I monitored that package from the mills of Mumbai like a hawk.

Perhaps It Wasn’t One Modafinil?

4. I’d recently started taking calcium supplements, that have been (anecdotally) connected to stress attacks when used with modafinil.

Can I do it these days without modafinil?

(There’therefore a diva in us all.)

7:30am — wrapped up, pop a tab.

Controlling that split instant freeze-frame between “I am” and “I feel” can make all of the difference… between wrestling control of the nerves, and faceplanting your cooked rice.

Aftermath: Ideas on the Experiment

Paradoxically, the symptoms began to subside at precisely exactly the exact same time as I reintroduced my everyday coffee fix.
From intelligent drugs, to nootropics, to vitamin piles …

Introverts, socially awkward, tube vision trends, etc, etc..

On Facebook, Skype and Reddit.

Well, quitting coffee didn’t even have much effect originally.

What if I have another one? What if that is my future? Imagine should I’m slowly losing the plot?

Despite this, after a few weeks, I noticed that the performance large had tapered off.
As an affiliate, I heard about modafinil via the usual circles.

I was still getting more work done modafinil, but without the identical intensity or total-mindedness which marked my early experiences.

I hadn’t yet put my finger on anxiety for a root cause.
We’re all around that like pigs in shit.

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Trends don’t come no larger than the usual ‘smart pill’ that decreases your overall BellEnd’atude and pieces through the to do list such as a knife during jam doughnuts.
I see a good deal of affiliates tinkering with modafinil, along with other smart drugs.

3. Acknowledging Stress As Is

They were too little to get a busy mind to notice.

Moreover, I’ve built up enough competence over the years to get more done in my bad days than most folks get done in their own good weeks.

It’s also made me more empathetic towards others that I know who suffer with anxiety. And others, I guess, who don’t know they suffer with it.
It simply hadn’t ever been triggered in the way that result in a panic attack.

2. Managing caffeine amounts

It’s ’s not possible to discount the placebo effect when you go to bed excited to awaken and try a smart drug.

I’d sense sudden pangs of nausea, a feeling of complete disrepair. Dizziness on my feet.
Whatever the circumstance, I did not feel Limitless.

It’s no brainer that taking modafinil daily will reduce the efficiency of the medication, whilst potentially introducing undesirable side effects (and even worse: dependence ).
The activate , if you will.
If you’ve experienced a panic attack, or unexpected onset anxiety, you are aware that it’s just not worth chasing that additional 10 percent — or seeking to eliminate the bad days — at the expense of your psychological health.
But this day would mark the first time I’d ever felt the need to see about doing it. To know the signs.
And for that, I attribute over-stimulation of my nervous system.

I wanted this to be over in seconds, not a whole afternoon.
The recurring theme had become java.
I’d taken modafinil that morning, along with a sizable highly caffeinated coffee… that I guess is the equal of raising two hands to the Gods of a single ’s nervous system.

The Appeal of Modafinil

Without really noticing anything different.
The incident opened my eyes symptoms of stress I have dismissed for my entire life.
1. I’d only spent two exhausting weeks in the united kingdom for Christmas. Continuous booze + shitty train traveling + breaking two toes in the very first week following Sheer exhaustion once I got back to Bangkok.

Taking any more modafinil was the very last thing in my mind.

I’Id flee the coffee store and spend another hour restraining my apartment furiously, or setting down and daring my pups: “Calm down me, calm down me …”.
Six weeks, I’m back to ‘regular ’.
But yes, I suspect that modafinil played a part.

I didn’t appreciate it afterward, but I was under intense stress and running on toaster fumes. My body was breaking down with no breaking .

Thoughts on Anxiety in General

Nevertheless, the initial weeks with modafinil were startling.

I used to not like the feeling one bit.
Very best way to decrease anger is to stop and acknowledge“I can feel the feeling of anger” …as opposed to continuing using “that I AM an angry motherfucker” and launch the very first plate.
My procrastination pro-skill of cycling through information websites, inboxes and social media accounts (Seen all of them? Start again…) was conquer through absolute total-minded tunnel vision.
A nervous disposition as opposed to a simmering wreck.
In case you’ve got an addictive nature, or don’t feel like you could control the need to say no to a wise drug on a normal day in the workplace, then overlook ’t begin. Period.
The third and most important tip I’ve shot onboard was the wake-up telephone from having a panic attack.
Over the preceding weeks I’d sometimes felt a feeling of unease. Heightened senses. Jittery restlessness.

7:45am — Shower and feed the dogs.
8:00’m — Wait 30 minutes for the Modafriend to kick in.
8:30’m — Arrive at workplace.
1:30pm — Arrive in desk.
7:30pm — Fuck it, arrive in workplace.

I can see how it may unleash it, too.
Placebo, or no other bunny, it didn’t really matter.

I had been mindful of only taking modafinil on days where it might be beneficial — specifically, on tasks that required intense concentration rather than lucid creativity (that btw, it can hinder spectacularly).
Appears to be a very small thing, but admitting that the feeling is a basic step in controlling it.
This way I felt less anxious, and more disgusted in the pause-spamming antics of the bastard who’d only dispatched a mentally understrength Finch FC 4-1.
We’re gonna get any work done.

I’ve noticed an uncomfortable floating / not-really-there feeling if I over-indulge in java beans.

If your ethical fibres beg to differ, you then ’re trespassing to the wrong blog.

I am able to ’t be certain the modafinil was to blame.
Modafinil + java.

I used to believe has been a bonkers cop-out.
(Sorry for the spoilers, chaps.)
I’d read a lot of user accounts and follow alongs I’d psyched myself up to become a new man.

(And some people call me fickle…)

The nearest I came to a short fix fix was enjoying games of Fifa online.

If you have shit to get done — lots of heaps of it — odds are, then you’ve spared a thought to this idea of a shortcut, or even seven.

  • Hopeless Writer Bum procrastinates away his life in failed attempt to send manuscript.
  • Writer Bum stumbles across new experimental smart drug, NZT.
  • Writer Bum awakens in to match of productivity and provides manuscript in a single sitting.
  • Functions ape shit from the process.

The evasive country of Flow — which I reckon I’Id be undergoing now if it wasn’t for those jam doughnuts — is where all of us would like to be.
Sounds crazy, but that’s when it dawned on me: it’d taken me precisely 29 years to determine just how anxiety feels as it manifests physically.
I’ve read accounts of affiliates moving out of no modafinil, about carrying two pills Each Day, daily , then wondering why…
Limitless was, naturally, completely fictional.

The pursuit of Total Allergic Enhancement is catnip to me, also.
Over 25/30 moments of dousing myself in those sweet velvety legumes, I’d grow restless. I’d feel sweaty palms.

Just like most post-event reasoning, the solution is likely more of a clusterfuck than that I am in a position to digest.

I endured a couple of recurring smaller strikes, despite ditching modafinil.
This period in January coincided with several changes:

The same over-stimulation of the nervous system, I suspect, that can escalate to a panic attack awarded the right trigger.
And it is more difficult to find.

Limitless movie
This had never occurred to me before.

This is a post about my adventures taking the popular ‘smart drug’ modafinil.
Truthfully, the connections between caffeine and anxiety are well recorded.
I’ve also found a few things that helped:
A mixture of events, situation; one bad day; along with a great deal of over-thinking.

Because of this, my initial experiences with modafinil — apart from the occasional intermittent headache — were completely positive.

Not really worth it at all.
As you’ll see in this article, I’ve had both positive and negative experiences.
The colour had drained from my head, my hands were shaking, and the murmur of overseas allies lunching was strewn about me. 1 major cacophony of psychological noise, amplified from the delight of my fiancee eating her lunch with a worried look. I don’t remember speaking, only muttering: “Need water, I want water, in which ’s the water…”
I’ve suffered from varying levels of stress for so long as I can recall, however, the symptoms had never de-railed me, or escalated to such an extent that I felt caked with them.
Nowadays, I top out in two cups of java each day.

Ever see Limitless?
I’m convinced that something close to maximum productivity is possible without modafinil — once I’m in ‘the zone’.
Finally grasping that what I had been experiencing was a panic attack, my next idea wasoh shit.

I started panicking about the anxiety attack.
How can I get more work done procrastinating less?

I remember dreading I had a heart disease, or even diabetes. Blood sugar problems. Who knows? You don’t need to speculate online because you know all streets cause Oh shit, It must be CANCER.
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This could be down to a tolerance of this drug, or an erosion of this placebo effect.

That’therefore the official use.
I had been sat at lunch with my fiancee, in a food court, believing excessively ‘buzzed’.
Result, after modafinil:

It’s a decent film, with a wonderful central hook.
My very initial few weeks with modafinil indicated a sudden dramatic spike in output where those small distractions which happen throughout the day had no impact on me.
I often see friends and advertising acquaintances posting about cognitive enhancers on Facebook.

Well. . no.
It was damned.
Off-label, modafinil has come to be the default ‘Smart Drug’ of choice for all those seeking productivity gains in the shape of sustained concentration and extreme focus.

  • Restlessness
  • Fidgeting
  • Sweaty palms
  • Racing thoughts
  • Sense of paranoia
  • Sense of foreboding
  • Racing heart rate
  • Dizziness and nausea
  • An entire disconnect from my environment
  • A need to GTFO

As always, I’d want to hear your ideas and experiences. On modafinil, anxiety attacks, anxiety and other epic smart drugs of choice…

I never recognized what they had been.
I’m learning how to admit when I’m feeling anxious, without any effort to alter the condition. To accept the feeling at source.

Self Help 101:

Over the yearsI’ve encountered all of these symptoms — to some degree — but not a circumstance where they’d come rushing into the top above a lunch of fucking fried rice.
1 poor dinner showed me it could be a lot more insidious than that.

It took a couple weeks to shake off the increased sense of anxiety which followed me about following the panic attack.
Well… I can see how that may decrease stress.
Some of you even post pictures of this little pill pre-popping.